Poem 1 = entire grid
Poem 2 =
inner circle, central vision that’s left
Poem 3 =
Blind Ring

Poem 1

Before all I can remember from seventh grade science class is the strange image of an inverted tree entering the eye upright then shrinking and flipping upside down. I don’t remember the light-sensitive layer of tissue lining the back of the eye or its center where a cell in charge of fast focus and fine detail transforms light into a signal that travels through a nerve to the brain. After I start learning about retinas maculas cone-packed foveas blind spots—that mine is growing when King Charles II used his to decapitate enemies—how brains make things up when they lack visual data and why some people in the early stages of vision loss hallucinate floating faces and little folks in costumes.

Poem 2


Poem 3

I never thought about blind spots or tried to find mine or wondered about how much of what I saw was real or illusion but when my brain could no longer hide the effects of diminishing cones–missing moons disappearing cars shifting lines absent faces–I began to pay attention.

Resources and Additional Thoughts

the strange image of the inverted tree


Things I learned after I discovered my vision loss (as mentioned in the poem):

  1. The fovea is a tiny pit in the macula that provides the clearest vision. A healthy fovea contains about 200,000 cone cells (source).
  2. The blind spot was first presented on and written about in 1668 by Edme Mariotte for the Royal Society.
  3. “Without visual data coming in through the eyes, the brain fills the void and makes up images or recalls stored images for you to see” (source). 
  4. And people who hallucinate during the early stages of vision loss, might have Charles Bonnet Syndrome (CBS):

The exact cause of Charles Bonnet Syndrome is not presently known, but the popular theory suggests that the brain is merely attempting to compensate for a shortage of visual stimuli. Consider that each human eye normally receives data at a rate of about 8.75 megabits per second, a higher bandwidth than many modern Internet connections. The visual cortex is the most massive system in the human brain, and it is packed with pathways which manipulate the rush of visual data before handing it over to the conscious mind. When disease begins to kink this firehose of information, a legion of neurons are left standing idle

Alan Bellows

Discovered in 1760 by Swiss naturalist, Charles Bonnet, when his grandfather began experiencing very strange hallucinations. 

CBS usually affects people in the early stages of vision loss, and the hallucinations usually begin while their vision is still present but slowly diminishing. 

CBS Hallucinations
  • surfaces covered in patterns, shapes
  • a nonexistent man sitting and relaxing in a real life recliner
  • men, leering, on the edge of bed, or a man looming over the bed, leaning down and staring into your eyes
  • waterfalls coming out of tall buildings
  • (as experienced by Bonnet’s grandfather, Charles Lullin): a carriage that kept growing in size until it was 2 stories tall
  • floating, disembodied faces
  • an excerpt of a musical score–unplayable with too many staffs and notes, and impossible key signatures
  • texts with letters that are unreadable
  • a stage, and when the curtain opens, roman letters dressed in medieval costumes appear
  • charging rhinos
  • animals, children, little people

These hallucinations are usually pleasant. A defining characteristic of CBS: the person experiencing them understands that they are not real.

A good source: Oliver Sacks has a chapter on CBS in his book, Hallucinations